I've always been a bigger person, ever since I was a child. I didn't use to let it bother me, until I got to around the age of 9/10, that's when I started noticing it and I did get picked on a bit for my size, I never fought back though, as I was an anxious child. Throughout Secondary School I always felt bigger than my friends, and as I was at the stage where I wanted to impress boys, I knew my weight was the reason boys weren't interested in me. My confidence in my looks went down dramatically and I literally had no self esteem when I left my secondary school. When I started college things started to get slightly better, as people mature a lot more once leaving school, however I did still feel like I was being judged on my size, and I think this was one of the reasons I found it hard to make friends there. When I went to University, things started to look up! For the first year I had found a lovely group of friends and flatmates and I was socialising a bit more. However, my eating habits were erratic and I often found myself ordering takeaways or cooking convenience food. I was also drinking a lot of alcohol, which is the norm at uni, but this made my weight balloon. Come my second and third years, my confidence dropped and I was withdrawing myself from socialising and I did become quite lonely. I only managed to get through them years as I really wanted my degree. Upon leaving University, I knew something had to be done about my weight, but it wasn't until I saw my graduation photos that I realised I needed to get motivated.
So, in January 2015, I, along with my mum, decided to join our local Slimming World group. I was rather nervous about it at first, as I knew I wasn't very good around people. However, my nerves were soon settled as the group was so lovely and my consultant was very welcoming and even though I was shocked when I stepped onto the scales, I wasn't judged. I also loved how I could eat as much fruit, veg, pasta, potatoes, rice etc as I wanted and also have little treats each day. Within 3 weeks I had lost half a stone, and after that happened I knew I was determined to get down to my ultimate target weight. I'd first set myself a personal goal of loosing 2 stone by June, and I was shocked when I achieved it by May. I carried on going, and even though I did gain a few times, I didn't let that put me off. I had lost 3 stone by my birthday in August, and 4 stone by November. I'd also became such an inspiration to my group that I won the groups Miss Slinky 2015 award, which I was so proud of! I was slowly getting to my target weight and on the first week of December, I finally reached my target weight! I'd lost 4st 4.5lb in total, and dropped four dress sizes and I was a different person!
Loosing weight has helped my confidence and health so much! I no longer feel ashamed of how I look, and because of this I am now doing things that I never dreamt I'd be doing. I'm going to social events more, I'm helping out at my Slimming World group, I'm speaking up more, I'm started to gain more friends, I'm going out and not worrying about if people are looking at me and I just feel so much better. I am never ever going to back to the girl I used to be. My life has changed for the better, and I owe it all to loosing weight.